Broody, me?

I've said numerous times that baby number two is not on the cards for us yet.  We would love another small person to add to our family but it's just not going to happen anytime soon. First and foremost we simply don't have enough space in our two bed apartment for another person, let alone a baby and all the paraphernalia that they come with.  Secondly I just haven't felt like I'm at that place yet. I've had no feelings of broodiness, Luca quite simply fills me with joy every single minute I'm with him and I love the time we spend together and honestly don't want to miss out on a moment of it.  He's at a wonderful age and I'm enjoying it.  I don't feel like I need another just yet. But.... 

A few days before Christmas, our latest addition to the family arrived.  A little pink bundle of joy called Elsie who takes the niece count up to 4!! We met her when she was just 12 days old and I was overwhelmed with broodiness. Uh oh! 

I put it down to a few things, mostly though, I put it down to this little lady taking her time to come.  She has been about 7 years in the making for my sister-in-law and her partner and so she feels a little bit special.  It could even have been because she was looking adorable in all her pink girly clothes when I'm surrounded by cars and pirates and general masculinity too (not something that's ever bothered me before, I'm a bit of a tom boy at heart).  


It also doesn't help that Luca adores babies.. The look in his eyes when he peeked into her pram for the first time and seeing him gently stroke her hair and talking softly to her was just a precious moment to behold.  

I was quite happy putting it down to those things and was just about over my bout of broodiness when my friend came round with her little boy, Jax. 

A little older than Elsie he is more alert and aware.  Luca was absolutely in his element.  He brought Jax lots of his toys to look at and chatted away to him.  Then when I got him on my knee for a cuddle, Luca went and brought some books over and we all had a big snuggle, whilst I read Zog and Room on the Broom to them both.  It felt lovely and just so right having one on each side.  

Luca then made me think my heart was literally about to burst.  He looked over at Jax who was having a little dribble and without saying a word wiped his mouth with his bib before turning back around to look at the book.  It was the sweetest little act and so genuine, he really is such a sweet, affectionate, caring little boy and maybe if we did have another he could be my little helper. 

It seems these feelings of broodiness may be true feelings, not just momentary, and my womb and ovaries are starting to cry out for another little person to cook.  I do think maybe it's getting close to the right time for us as Luca is shedding his last traces of baby-ness now and will soon be starting nursery and then school freeing up some time for me to look after and lavish attention on another child.

This though, this just makes my ovaries scream.

Suits him don't you think? 

Maybe baby no2 isn't as far away as we thought!